“How many months have you been in remission?” Bill, my new psychologist asked. “Three.” “And how does that make you feel?” “Good, I guess,” I pulled at the hem of my shirt. “But, I can’t shake the thought that…it’ll return. I just wanna know…am I cured or not?” My chin trembled and I grabbed a tissue […]


July 2009 Two months after being home from the hospital, the medical bills arrived in clumps. Some from Sabal; most for me. I wrote checks for the smaller statements first, leaving two large bills unpaid. We had $27.00 to survive the next couple of weeks. Scooping the piled papers together, the muscles around my neck […]

The Worst Two Years of My Life

After all the votes were tallied, here’s what you decided: 1) E: 35 (Headshot cover) 2) B: 28 (Blue cover w/ rushing doctor) 3) C: 16 (Collage of three photos) 4) D: 13 (Clouds, When God Intervenes) 5) A: 10 (Red and yellow cover with doctor) Jason and my sister, Christine, picked the top two (rushing […]

And The Book Cover Is…

Tyndale House Publishers designed amazing covers for this project. I’m curious, if the choice were up to you, which would you choose? A) B) C) D) E)

Which Cover Would You Choose?

“She’ll Never Make it Through the Night”: A football-sized-tumor and the decision keep her child initiated a battle of nine life-threatening illnesses The quoted words are the title of my book. The tagline following, well…that’s what I’ve been playing with. Help, please. Since taglines play an important part in drawing your reader in, I’d really love […]

Fellow Wordsmiths: Help (said in my most desperate voice)

When Sabal’s fingers touched my face, I knew morning had arrived. Through a thick fog and swollen eyes, my body slogged along until I sipped cups of morning coffee. That was me three years ago, in summer of 2010. Depression haunted my soul and felt much like I stood behind a plexiglass wall and couldn’t […]

8 Tips to Beat Depression

I want to quit today. Don’t want to write any longer. The manuscript deadline is in 10 days. Distractions surround me: evicting tenants, renovating a trashed rental, setting appointments for potential new renters, and finding time to love on my babies. It’s enough to make me want to pitch everything. Everything. To hit delete and […]

Prayer Or A Swift Kick In The Backside

Cacophony popped into my head the other day. Yeah. I didn’t know what the word meant either, and I certainly didn’t know how to spell it. Turns out it means “A harsh, discordant mixture of sounds.” I laughed. How perfect is that. I was writing a chapter where I felt something was missing, and this […]

Silly Prayers

Just like each of us are created with different likes and dislikes—reaching out can look differently from one patient to the next. This is tough. But from personal experience, the following actions brought the greatest joy during the ugliest times in my life. 1)      Food. There’s a reason most churches have a meal ministry. When […]

9 Tips To Helping Someone Newly Diagnosed

Guest Blogger: Jason HedegardWhat a whirlwind month. I haven’t been so shaken and unbalanced emotionally since my wife’s pulmonary embolism during her stem-cell transplant over 10 years ago. Losing my father at 64 years old has changed my thought process entirely these last few weeks. I feel a strange clock hanging over me now, ticking […]

Life Without Purpose Is Not Living At All

That’s what I heard while jogging. Err, rather…slogging. I can no longer claim that I jog when my thirteen-year-old walks the pace I run. We stumbled on this discovery last night. I digress. Listening to my FPEA Homeschool conference MP3, I replayed the last few seconds of Mark Hamby’s presentation just to be sure I […]

God's Trying To Kill You

I’ve been sick a good portion of my life. Nine life-threatening illnesses, sick. Sepsis, renal failure, ARDS…the list continues. Some of these words I never knew existed until I laid comatose in the ICU several years ago. But this tidbit of information, if I had the choice, I’d rather not talk about. Let’s be honest. […]

Sickness a Catalyst?

I love to cook. I just wish I was good at it. That’s why anytime my hubby plays in the kitchen, I stand back and cheer him on. He’s amazing with the oven or grill or sauté pan. Really, this is not fair for an unsuccessful mommy-chef like me who diligently selects five-star recipes and […]

Mangoey Goodness (Even for the non-mango lover)

Four little words rocked my world. As I sat down to dinner and reread my place card, I felt a second pair of eyes watching me. Almond-shaped eyes, to be exact. Ansley’s little body hugged close to the corner of the wall as she said, “Do you like it, Mommy. What I wrote?” How could […]

Dabney Is My Mom

Recently, I hit one of those downward spirals. From unexpected kitchen renovations due to moldy cabinets, to major plumbing repairs throughout the house. Add in multiple misunderstandings with the hubby, the kids acting like kids and the pressure to keep it altogether with a smile–I finally was pushed too far. One afternoon, I walked to […]

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